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Even a boring men's t shirt can look amazing with a bra & boobs underneath

 As my followers will know, I am very much a gay crossdresser, you only have to look at my free Twitter, let alone my OnlyFans or new ManyVids profiles to find that out LOL

I have been a fulltime panties wearer for over 25 years now, and every chance I get I am in a bra + DD breast forms, and women's clothes from skirts, jeans, dresses or leggings. And maybe in tights, thigh high hold ups or stockings.

But, on this day, my point is that even though I had to be in a boring mens top (work video calls), with careful camera and sitting angles I could still have a bra & DD breasts underneath, still feel gurly and fem. And, if I am honest I was quite surprised how good it looked, what do you think?

Sexual Health - get tested regularly for your own, and partners, safety and have fun (UPDATED 13/03/2023)

If you follow my on my socials (Twitter or OnlyFans, not on my ManyVids yet but will when I next get tested) you may have seen that I have been getting myself tested for sexually transmitted infections (STI's) for a while now. I have never tested positive or had a 'partner' scare.

But, I believe it is important for myself, anyone I have sex with as well as any of our future partners and the Adult / Sex Worker industry. So I did some research, thanks to Google, and after checking out a few options found SH.UK, a UK based company that offers free testing in some areas, including mine. Easy to sign up, few easy questions (be honest with your answers to make sure you get the right test(s) and away we went, superb service and I feel happier, knowing I am looking after myself, my partners and clients.

Bit if background, I am a very sexually active gay crossdresser. I do camshows, shoots and meets when I can/work allows (unfortunately being a sex worker isn't my main source of income yet, but hopefully will be one day) and will be doing more bookable meets where we can make content or just have fun, 1 in 1 or I am up for groups using me. I prefer bareback, feels so much nicer and amazing when a guy blows his load, nuts in my ass or mouth. But respect my clients wishes, so if they want to use condoms I wouldn't object. I also like casual sex, regularly visiting my local gay sauna and other public places for as much sex, cock and cum as I can get. So testing is important.

I am lucky to live in the UK, and in an area where I can get regular free sexual health testing, with an online account that provides links to verify my health status to anyone that needs to know, as often as I need to share. I go online, answer a few questions and they send me the kit, plain packaging and has full easy to understand instructions, everything you will need and a pre paid box to send it all back in. Mine usually comprises of blood and urine samples as well as oral and anal swabs. It takes me less than 10 mins to do all of the samples now, clean up n packaged ready to send to the lab. You get regular sms updates and it is such a quick and easy thing to do.

So I am tested for Chlamydia, Gonorrhoea, HIV and Syphilis at the moment.

The point behind this article isn't to say I am STI free, but an ask. To get yourself tested, whether you regular have unprotected sex with multiple partners like me, or just once and are worried. 

Check out this site, and local health clinics and testing services - Google is an amazing source of info as is your local sexual health clinic. Search and find out how you can help protect the sex worker industry, us as sex workers, our clients and families... the list goes on xxxxx

Thank you for reading,

Lena xx

UPDATE

I should have added during the week, as a good gurly sex worker, I have ordered a new test kit, at present I do it every 3 months, should I do it more often? How often do you get tested as a sex worker?

Update - 13th March 2023

Ordered my latest test kit, been 3 months since my last one already.

Amazingly it arrived the following day, took me less than 10 mins to unpack and do my 4 samples - oral and anal swabs (don't get them mixed up lol), pee sample and blood. Back in the post and off for testing.

gurly, anal (slut) problems - literal pain in the ass - piles or haemorrhoids (product review) - UPDATED

 I am a self confessed, with LOTS of proof on my social platforms - Twitter, OnlyFans, ManyVids or see all of my official links via my Link Tree - and one of the possible issues, is damage to an abuse butthole.

I am regularly abusing my ass with larger, and larger toys or objects and I am often (very often) to impatient and horny to 'ease' into the big toys, to start small and stretch / let my butthole adjust, and just lube up the big boys n ride away. 

This obviously gives me pleasure quickly, butt also runs the risk of hurting or damaging my ring, whether that is tears, fissures or piles / haemorroids.

Sadly, after long abuse I noticed that I did indeed have a couple of bulging / external haemooroids, this is not unusual or painful, just not the best thing to look at LOL Luckily they have never given me any problems, no bleeding, itching or discomfort.

I have tried several creams and lotions, from generic herbal remedies to the more traditional Anusol or Germoloids. And, although they did seem to ease the symptoms, they didn't treat or reduce the swellings.

So, I have recently tried a tablet, thought it worth a go - Dinaven 500 which I got very quickly from Amazon.

The dosage is 1 or 2 per day, with food, and I took 2 per day for the 1st week then reduced it to 1 - to see how they did. I am now into my 3rd week, 19 days to be exact, and I can see a reduction in the size and swelling of the external haemorrhoids, which is amazing and I am very happy. I will continue to take till I finish this pack (box of 60 tablets) and will probably be ordering a 2nd box, just in case I need them or they start to re occur / return once I stop - after all I am not going to stop abusing my ass or letting others fuck me hard n as often as possible am I hehe.

19/11/2022

Quick update, I am nearly at the end of my 1st box of these tablets, and despite some abuse (by me and large toys/objects) my butthole does look better, healthier n less like it has swollen lumps. So, I have ordered a 2nd box, to continue the treatment and keep some on hand in case of any flare ups. No side effects felt by me.

How are my little gurly tiddies doing? update (03 Nov 2022) & advice please!

 As many of you will know, I have been taking natural supplements to try and grow some natural tiddies. For the last year or so, I have been taking a Nuke Nutrition Femme Boost Breast Growth supplement, one capsule per day. And, I can see growth. 

I haven't measured them in ages, and tbh need to get an accurate way of measuring in the same place each time. But there is definitely something to cup, and hold. It is squishy n soft and bounces when I move, so I am happy - and it is making me think seriously about taking HRT / Estrogen to really kick start my change, to become more feminine and grow breasts.

Recently, after some online research and reading, I have also begun drinking Peppermint tea, which acts as a natural testosterone blocker - not saying I like / love the taste of it yet, but I will keep going. I am having one or two cups a day, so not a huge amount yet, baby steps lol

Just wanted to give you all an update, and I will add some pics soon. I have also noticed my chest hair thinning, not brave enough to shave it all off (no idea why!) but I do shave my breasts at least weekly, so after I shave them, and my leg tops / ass, tomorrow morning I will add photo(s) to this post

Lena xx

Thursday 03rd November (update)

So, I am trying to work but am horny as hell and can't stop stroking my shaved boiclitty through todays lace thong panties n browsing twitter. Anyway, seen posts by an incredibly sexy, hot as fuck, trans person that lives in same county, and her titties are gorgeous (as is her cock and the rest of her) and it has made me start playing with my little tiddie buds, and wondering about the next step... do I up my breast growth supplement? I am drinking peppermint tea as it is meant to be a natural testosterone blocker and will drink more, but now also wondering should I take testosterone blockers or maybe buy some HRT tabs/patches online and start that as well?

Confused, excited, horny, happy, scared n a whole mixture of emotions. But I do now 100% for certain, I am thinking about being more Femme, wanting bigger boobs, gurly waist, voice n ass more and more everyday that goes by. 

Thoughts anyone?

19/11/2022

Still happy with my tiddy growth, been looking at HRT / Oestrogen tablets or patches more n more lately, seems like I am moving to the next stage of my desire, my need, to have boobs! Lena x 

ME1 Gay Sauna - unplanned visit

 Taking advantage of my day finishing earlier than expected yesterday, always good when meetings finish early rather than late!

Took a trip to ME1 Gay Sauna in Rochester, Kent. I haven't had the time or opportunity to go for ages, and I love the chance to chill, relax and enjoy being naked in the hot tub, steam room and sauna as well as the play rooms, sex rooms and dark areas - cock n cum whilst relax, feel better and watch wonderful gay porn - what could be better.

I knew I didn't have much time spare, but even a couple of hours was worth the reasonable entrance fee (and they now take card as well as cash payments).

So arrived, paid n entered. Stripped down to my little pink thong panties then realised I didn't have a towel, so walked back to reception with my bare ass wiggling to get one. The towel was smaller than previously, not even going round my waist to cover up - not a problem, I love being naked there and the rule of no nudity in the coffee lounge seems to have gone. 

Since my last visit, and during the horrible times of covid, they have refurbished the rooms, with more sex benches, beds and couches, bigger and better for multi layer n person fun.

Anyway, it is def worth a visit, check out their website for pics, open hours etc.

I am a good slut, i take regular sti tests now, at least every 3 months - and as a resident of Medway I am able to use a free NHS sponsored service and get my results in a few days.

So, the important bit - did I have any fun.

I arrived about 3.30pm, and the place was quite busy, lots of guys wandering around, sounds of moaning and fucking.

I showered, lubed up my hole (free lube and condoms available all around the venue) and went in search of cock!

I sucked one guy off in the sauna, before we headed back into the showers and i got a good taste of his cock and cum, all swallowed.

Next I had some fun in the dark area, a group of guys surrounded me and after wanking a few of them i dropped to my knees n started to suck, one guy insisted on wearing a condom to get blown and after a while the taste of latex put me off so i headed down to the lounge for a free coffee.

After that i wandered around, sucked a few more cocks but although busy with guys I struggled to find a top to fuck my ass, ended up fingering myself with an ass blast as I watched porn - but that is just pot luck, as you never know what guys will be in these venues.

Anyway, it was still fun and worth the £13 to relax, suck some cocks and swallow 4 loads of cum.

Hope to be back there soon, for longer and get my ass pounded raw n hard, filled with cum and left a cum soaked n filled cock slut hehe.

shopping experience in 2022

I was under the belief, maybe misguided belief, that we had moved forward over the last few years and away from stereotypical attitudes.

I was doing some food shopping in a big, well known British supermarket and as I walked past their clothing section decided to go and look at the lingerie, and maybe some summer linen trousers (I really want a new pair of white linen trousers, just see through enough to be saucy but not improper, well maybe just a little bit naughty too lol). 

I am looking for a new bra and panty set, maybe more than one, in A/AA size, lace or sheer without padding etc. so I can wear under anything as my titties slowly grow. Sometimes visible through tops and other times hidden, depending on how confident I am feeling and location / company.

Anyway, as I browsed the lingerie section, seeing a few that I liked and picking them up to get a better look, and at least 2 or 3 times see if they had my size (36 A or AA). It was after putting back one bra, I hadn't even picked up any panties yet, that I noticed a member of staff watching, an older lady, just standing watching me. As I moved around she followed, stopping every time I did and then moving with me, always keeping me in sight.

I will be honest and say this really annoyed me, infuriated, and I was tempted to confront her and / or see a manager, but it was late and I just wanted to get home - point to note as well is that this was just a few days before Valentines Day, a time of year I am sure there are millions of men (haha) looking at lingerie for their wives, girlfriends, mistresses and more. As well as crossdressers, bisexuals and gays buying new underwear for themselves and/or partners.

She continued to follow me as I looked at linen trousers and only stopped when i returned to the main grocery part of the store. 

As she didn't approach me, ask if I needed any help or to check if a size I wanted was in stock, I can only presume that she was watching as I was a male looking at bra's and panties, maybe her generation wouldn't have done such a thing but she works in a modern store so should be aware that times have changed, and if not she is in the wrong job.

She had no way of knowing which category I fell into, I wasn't in a skirt, dress or any obvious female clothes (unless I had shown my thong when bending down to look at racks of bra's) but in jeans and a t shirt, perfectly ordinary clothes. And, it shouldn't matter - I was a customer looking to make a purchase, whilst shopping, and in 2022 it most definitely should NOT matter which group I was in - in so many ways it was just wrong.

After leaving, and driving home (without any new lingerie or trousers) I wished I had asked to see a manager, complained and made my feelings known. I am not easily offended or put off, and have been lingerie shopping for myself for over 20 years so not bothered by stares or giggles, but others may or will be offended, upset and put off exploring them own world, their own needs and happiness.

Just wrong in this day and age.

Rant over for today

Can you tell, just by looking?

NO, I am not asking if you can tell at a glance, if a person is trans or not, if they are hiding (or not) a boiclitty cock.

I am talking about clothes. I often answer the door and go out wearing women's jeans, and anyone that wears them knows the main difference from the front.

From the rear, the shape and way women's jeans cup, support or highlight your ass n butt cheeks is so much better than men's jeans, they give your ass shape, tight coverage and look sexy as hell.

But from the front, do you know / can you tell at a glance if the person in front of you is wearing men's or women's jeans?

They both have pockets, zips n buttons - but the zip / button fastenings open from the opposite direction

Men's jeans have the opening, and flap covering the zip from the right, and women's from the left - don't believe me, have doubts - go check.

I love wearing women's jeans, not just because I am a crossdresser or that I want people to notice, but also because they look better and are much more comfortable to wear, I would always chose women's jeans if I have the option.

If you have a wife, girlfriend, significant other or even sister and are similar in size, go try them on - it doesn't make you gay, gurly, sissy, trans, a crossdresser or any combination - just try them and let me know in the comments how they feel, how they make you look and feel better and hotter (in a sexy way LOL).

The difference on Social Media of being gurly, trans, trap, mtf, CD etc compared with straight

 I was chilling with a friend recently, a straight male that is just a friend, not a FWB or anything else, just a good mate. 

As we were waiting for Netflix to load (in the end it didn't it stuck at 76% and would do no more, no matter what we tried!). Anyway, that isn't this story...

Whilst we were waiting he was scrolling through his Instagram, something I can't do as I was banned and my account removed for posting photos that showed a bulge in the front of my panties, no flesh just a bulge, which is I believe quite normal?

As he reached the end of his followed feed updates and heading into the 'suggested' one caught our attention, different reactions but for the same reason.

It was a picture that very, very clearly showed a woman lying down, with some fabric covering her breasts (not a lot) and that was it, naked all the way down to the very obvious clear camel toe of her pussy.

Obviously his reaction was wow, mine was more 'are they taking the piss'

We discussed, and he agreed that the standards applied to the various gender / sexuality posts on some social media, namely Facebook and Instagram, are totally unbalanced, this got worse when we looked at the rest of the pictures! A whole collection of camel toe pictures and video clips, you get even more if you search for #cameltoe - that is how difficult it would be for the moderators to check!

Anyway, later that night I set up a gmail account and created a new profile, as a straight male, and reported the photo.... outcome - not removed as we don't have time / resources to review all of the reported images. Now, I get this but do wonder how they had time to review and delete every post that I made that showed a panty bulge. I reported it again, same result... having looked today it has now been removed, but the account is still active with plenty more similar images and video clips, take a look yourself - account is Cameltoeville

Am I being overly angry and cynical, or does this yet again proof the gender / sexuality bias of Instagram?

chance to dress as a women, crossdressing heaven

I have really enjoyed this week,  I have had the opportunity- time and freedom, even though working I have had less video calls than usual so been able to be female all over, rather than just below the waist n putting bra, breadt forms and womens top on between calls.

I have enjoyed the feeling of being in womens clothes, loved the look and feel of having boobs - the way clothes are pushed out on my DD's as well as the weight n movement of the breasts themselves. It still makes me smile, just being dressed, even in plain simple leggings and t shirt, nothing fancy or sexy, just being in womens clothes. To put it simply, being in womens clothes is relaxing, its happiness, its just right!

I have varied what I have worn, from low rise jeans (these feel amazing, I would wear them all the time if I could, they are comfy, practical yet a little naughty n sexy too. Also mini skirts, a dress n yoga pants. Mixed in with various womens t shirts and tops.

And of course, as well as panties I have had bra's on, sometimes a matching set others just any bra that came to hand. Looking down, seeing the push of my DD's against the tops, the peaks that push out from my chest,  god I wish they were real n mine everyday. 

Oh, n I have worn stiletto heels most days too, on my feet for anything from 2 or 3 hours up to about 7 hours - bliss! Hearing them click on the wooden floor or outside on the patio slabs / concrete path when doing recycling or taking a break from sitting in front of a laptop. They should be compulsory for everyone that isn't an alpha male hehe, convert everyone tk gurliness. 

So, all in all been a wonderful week thatbi have enjoyed, felt myself and been happy. Lets hope I get more time next week to do the same.

And of course, I have taken pics that are on my twitter and OnlyFans pages.